Entry 4

Dear Diary;

I guess you could say, we have had alot of practise getting to know how to deal with our angry sides.



Juan and I probably do fight more then most couples, but we are also stronger then any other couple. We can start off fighting about nothing, which turns into anything in our realationship that we didnt like. Or me being my overprotective needy side coming out not wanting him to talk to a girl. We have screamed at eachother, threaten eachother and made eachother cry. But I will say this, I would never take back a single one of our fights. Its what has made us stronger, made me more confident knowing we can make it fast any fight, or issue we have to come across.



This is the man I want to marry and spend my forever with, that is one thing I know, and always will know.





Ps: finally sent Juan his game i bought him, can't wait to watch him play

Entry Three

Dear Diary

Today was a good day, much better then yesturday. Note the no entry. Well in the morning and the night before Juan had broken up with me, I don't take it lightly when he breaks up with me. But in the morning he said he would take me underson some conditions, 1. No more complimenting him, 2. Talk and be friends with guys again. 3. Not to hurt myself. and 4, this is the one that made me have my very first breakdown, i couldn't call him my boyfriend. After he was aware of the break down I was having he tried to calm me down. Taking the conditions away, but in my mind he didnt want me. You see Juan isn't a guy who wants to break up with me. Hes scared to loose me he acts out. Sure it's painful to deal with it but, wow I am so deep inlove for this boy it's scares me, I can't loose him. and there is one thing that keeps me hanging in there, What? thats something I just can't let out. Somethings are ment to be treasured with your heart and can't leave it.
Back to today, nothing speical even happened. I think thats what made it so great, because well.. it also ment nothing went wrong minus Juan being a little down.
I dont know what it is, but I dont feel 100% about this blogg thing. I dont know if its the fear of others reading it or what. Im sure it can only get better

Till The Next Time
nicole out

Entry Two

Dear Diary

You can only avoid so many issues in one day, that was my lesson of the day. See me and my boyfriend fight alot. Which is even harder seening how he lives in Florida well im living here in Canada. But hes this incredible, man that I just can't help but fall inlove with him over and over again. Hes made me cry more then anyone has, yet at the same time hes made me laugh and smile twice that amount that anyone has. We have been dating for 8 woderful month now, and I know this is the man I want to wake up to every morning for the rest of my life.
Back to my point, yesturday we had a slight fight which i decided to let go, I usually know when to pick my battles with Juan, and then today he had another overreation which did not last long because I told him how I know how he was, and I was fear talking, not him. rest of the day has been amazing, we even played our game together, this is a game online that we decided to do to have in common, which we only play on weekend, but tonight it ended with us all heated up saying how much we loved eachother and wanted eachother, and then soon enough it went bad. Juan went all im not the man you picture, im like baby I have seen you and you are just what I want. I dont want this skinny boy who cant protect me or this muscly guy that I will be affraid of him squashing me, no I like regular if not a little bigger guys that will make me feel safe and warm.
Another event that happened today was my brother and I decussing more about moving out into an apparentment together. I am aware i will have to live with my mother and this man for a bit, but by then I will be in theraphy, hopefully that will help.

Till Another Day